Archive for September, 2014

September 22, 2014

On Spiritual Emergency, Shamanism, Mental Illness, Therapy, and Anti-Psychiatry Sentiment in the General Pagan/Polytheist Community

I just found this blog and wow. And, if you’ve followed me anywhere online for any amount of time, you know my struggle with my mental illness. My long and sometimes debilitating struggle and how much I loathe how pagans seem to approach it. This… is amazing. Read it, all of it. I encourage you all to do so.

Foxglove & Firmitas

Alternative Title: I’m Gonna Keep Talking About This Until It’s a Generally Accepted Thing…

It happened again. Someone posted another article on mental illness being a sign of a healer being born on the Local Pagan Facebook Group with the general overarching but not direct message being that all native and ancient cultures saw it as this. Now I don’t deny that mental illness can be the birth of a healer. I’ve known too many people who have struggled with a history of it, myself included, that haven’t found themselves called to help others dealing with similar problems.

However, these articles tend to stress how society is actually the sick one, and how we need to stop shoving pills at people to fix all their problems.

Anyone who has ever been on psychiatric medication will probably tell you that pills don’t solve all the problems and most professionals are pretty…

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September 11, 2014

Oh… H2…

I’m watching Clash of the Gods on H2 right now because… it’s on. To be fair, I changed the channel to H2 on lunch (I work from home) because the channel the television had been on was airing Wendy Williams and I’d rather douse myself in gasoline and light myself on fire slowly with flint and steel than listen to her “How you doin’?” for another damn minute.

Seriously, I have an almost unhealthly level of loathing for that woman, her constant vanity, terrible advice and opinions on everything in the world, her terrible walking stereotype of the ‘sassy black woman’, and her insipid attitude about everything. She is a damn joke in my house. I have black friends that hate her, her weaves and her damn shoe cam.

And, since it was 12:15 central on a Thursday, H2 was the only thing that had anything of remote entertainment value on other than Al Jazeera news network, but… I can only handle so much news on September 11th. I get that it was a tragic day in our history and such, but I’m kind of tired of mourning it -and I was on the phone with a lady in NYC as she watch a plane hit one of the WTC towers at work, and we aren’t any damn safer and we are a whole lot less free. But… I digress.

So… Clash of the Gods. You know, when this show first came out I bought it on DVD at Walmart for like $10. That should have been sign number 1 of how quality it was. I remember watching it all the way through once and thinking, “huh. Well, now, there is some information in some of these episodes I do not recall seeing anywhere in my primary source research before. I shall have to do some digging.”

Which I did. I didn’t find this information they claimed as fact… these… professors from colleges. So what the heck are they talking about?

I can forgive some bad information on Wikipedia… on Disney programs and so forth. But… on a show on a channel that was long associated with trying to portray itself as educational… please. Even if you were going to try to put a different spin on it, at least get the myths right.

September 11, 2014

How to get started with Dionysos

Three. Three Sannion reblogs in a row, ah, ah, ah.

Saving for posterity. I get asked by locals a lot on how to get started with certain Greeks. Dionysos comes up quite often. I don’t work directly with Dionysos as intensely as some do, so this is a good reference to keep in my blog to direct people too.

September 11, 2014

Is Z. Budapest a terrorist?

Okay, I know, two Sannion reblogs in a row. But… I was at DragonCon while these were blogged, hush. But…

Sadly, this doesn’t surprise me either. Z. Budapest has honestly become that crazy aunt you don’t even like to invite over for holidays anymore because the whole time she sits in the corner, drinking way too much Egg Nog while bitching about how the blacks, Mexicans and Asians are takin’ over her country and don’t we know that our president is really an Alien because she saw it on the cover of The Weekly World News…

I don’t take her seriously at all anymore. She’s become a joke in my book. After the stunt against the trans women a few years ago… just, no. If the pagan community wants to grow, it needs to stop letting individuals like this label themselves as leaders. Now, while I understand the pagan (and mostly Wiccan) visceral reaction to the suggestion of a hierarchical order of things… because “Oh noes! Organized religion and dogma and rules OH MY!” You can’t hold people accountable for bad behavior if you don’t have any actual set expectation for behavior of those you have your younger members look up to.

September 11, 2014

Another day, another BNP behaving badly.

Is this the kind of deplorable crap I’ve missed hiding away in my home, sick as shit, avoiding the greater pagan community? Reprehensible behavior from so-called BNP? I’m not really surprised, sadly, and I know that the blog I’m linking from is a few days old now… but good lord.

I kind of want to go back to hiding now. I avoided mainstream paganism to try to heal myself, at least I wasn’t missing much in my absence.

This man is a degenerate. At least I can sleep well knowing hubris is generally punished swiftly.

September 8, 2014

It Will Be

So, my last real update here was on February 26, 2014. I am not proud to admit that I stepped almost entirely away from my religious and spiritual life since not long after that until about a week ago. Sure, there were moments where I would look longingly over at my household altars, clean them up a bit, and think of doing… something (even just a hymn of honor and an offering) but couldn’t bring myself to do much beyond an apologetic sigh of, “I haven’t forgotten you, I’m just… can’t.”

I hate the word can’t. It feels like a cop out. I know that isn’t entirely true, there are points in our lives where we are actually incapable of doing certain things. I hit a brick wall and the only way I was going to get passed it was if I was ready to do so. That’s what it was. I was not falling to my knees and begging, pleading and praying for the gods to come down and alleviate my pain. None of it; not my psychological, emotional, financial or physical pains. I just was going to suck it up and tough it out.

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